As a helper, I joint a Family Constellation (a kind of psychological healing) last night. It was my first time and I asked for joining it. I would say it's so amazing and "magical" that there was a power guiding you how to act. I know what I did but I just couldn't control my feeling and actions.
I was a helper but coincidentally I solved my inner confrontations and the problems affected me for over 10 years.
I'm relieved now.
And I know I should really LET IT GO.