I wanna be happy all the time but I think no one can be that lucky.
Some family problems and arguments could never be solved that make me depressed. Something happened when I was too young and I could do nothing to help. Although now I am an adult, I am still a child in my family and then still can do nothing. So I know it’s not the matter of age but family position.
I would say one decision could change everything (suddenly think about butterfly effect). I always hope that I can be as optimize as a sunflower and I know I am not at all in fact.
It is not what you want but what you always are.
Of course you may not know what I am saying, but I am very and extremely sad at this moment.
Wish me luck!